It was late 2010, and I was sitting down to be interviewed on national television.
From the outside, my life probably looked perfect: I was making great money, I had just been promoted, and I was doing national media interviews on a monthly basis.
But internally I was locked in an epic battle with myself -- a productivity battle. And I was losing, badly.
You see, my biggest secret in life is that I am really unproductive for a successful person. Not your average unproductive… I’m talking about “What the heck is WRONG with me??” unproductive.
At every critical moment in my life, from high school to Wall Street, I managed to clear the next hurdle by working in short panicked SPURTS -- always at the very last moment.
I had a simple productivity formula: Overcommit myself, let everything start piling up, procrastinate deadlines, get everything done in a last minute panic, and then collapse under the pressure.
Rinse and repeat.
But using fear to fuel your productivity can only take you so far - and it had burned me out.
My formula wasn’t working anymore. I was getting less and less done. I had developed not one but TWO stress related chronic illnesses.
I couldn’t focus at work anymore. I had to work 10 hours a day, because I was do distracted and unfocused I wasn’t getting the important work done.
I was completely overwhelmed and overcommitted, both at work and in my personal life.
I didn’t have any systems or organization or structure to help me manage my life. I was just winging it every day - trying to keep my head above water.
But worst of all, I was an EMOTIONAL WORKER: I would go weeks where I lost all inspiration and I would sit in front of the computer screen getting nothing done at all.
It must have been YEARS since I could remember having a solid work day I was proud of. Now I know that’s because I was fighting off chronic exhaustion.
I knew I needed help.
But I thought my brain was permanently wired wrong: how do you get help for that?
I read all the hot books on productivity, I attended seminars, online classes -- anything that I thought could help me get by.
They all promised magical results, but I didn’t believe I could really “master” my productivity. Yeah, right! I was just trying to find small improvements to get by.
I ended up learning about all the hot trends in productivity - some real and some fake. I downloaded all the apps and programs.
By the end of it I could have taught a college class about productivity.
But my productivity still sucked.
I felt ashamed and hypocritical.
How could I have a brain full of the best teachings on productivity, and still not be able to consistently get in a powerful day’s work?
That question plagued me for years. But looking back, I’m glad I had to suffer through it.
Because that question: “How can I KNOW what to do, but still not be ABLE to do it?” -- is the right question to be asking yourself. It’s the only question, in fact.
If you’re on the same path I was…
If my story sounds familiar to you…
If you are successful in SPITE of your productivity, not BECAUSE of it…
I’m here to tell you that you are CLOSER to breaking through than ever before.